Got it!!

Yup received email notification from HR at 5pm today. Finally got my promotion!

Was really down in the dumps since Friday evening after I got to know that somebody in the office had already received a letter of promotion.

Got more down in the dumps over the weekend as I began to try to think what should be my next move if I realy did not get it again this year.

I was very determined to just quit and move on, but as I really think further, things would not be easy.

- assuming my plan to start a family materialise, how could I get a new job and a few months later tell them 'bye, I am going for my maternity leave'....?!
- getting a new job meant no promotion for at least another 2 to 3 years...if I stayed on, the possibility would definately be higher in 2011....
- and this was all assuming that I could get a new job.

- but assuming that I stayed on and plan to start a family materialise, would that affect my chances also in 2011??
- more and more new people would come in, more scholars also, would chances get slimmer and slimmer??
- I also started to question myself, if there was something wrong with me. If my performace had been good (well...bosses have been telling me good this good that, and I also had been getting the performance bonuses), then what the hell went wrong?? The only thing I could think of was that my CEP is damn low......and this really hit badly and caused great damage to the self-esteem...

Then, I began to marvel at my own stupidity, for not sending out even 1 application for a new job over the past year. I should have done it straight after I failed to get it last year! Big dumb ass I was...to land myself in this pool of deep shit.

Getting it is very important, as it not only marked a new milestone, but a 'passport' - which meant I have more control on what steps to take next with more options and less considerations to worry about on each options.

Eg:
- I can continue with my family plans, go for maternity, NPL, then come back.
- I can even opt to move on to another job after that.
- Even if I quit, then return to the Public Sector again, I am at a higher grade.

Most importantly, it is a milestone, a recognition, a reward, a boost on the self-esteem.

Ah..very difficult to explain to people who are not in my position....well...everything is well again :)

** I found out that Prosecuting Officer for the MOM does not require a law discipline graduate!!! So interesting!! A good place to move to!!